Growing up in Czechoslovakia during the Cold War, my early years were marked by upheaval and uncertainty. At just three years old, my parents fled the oppressive regime, leaving me in the care of my grandmother. Years later, after an arduous legal battle chronicled publicly, we reunited in Sweden—a reunion overshadowed by familial discord. Sent to live with strangers who barely knew me, I found myself adrift, questioning my place in the world.
In Sweden, the challenges only intensified. As the “stinky commie” girl at school, I faced isolation and ridicule for being different. My appearance, accent, and mannerisms set me apart in ways that made integration nearly impossible. Yet, amidst this turmoil, an unexpected opportunity emerged when I was thirteen. A friend passionate about makeup began experimenting on me, replicating styles from Vogue magazine. Her admiration for my features planted the seed of possibility, transforming how I viewed myself.
At fifteen, my life took a dramatic turn when photographs showcasing my unique features caught the attention of John Casablancas of Elite Model Management. In Copenhagen, I met him and soon embarked on a career in Paris. Suddenly, traits once labeled as odd were celebrated globally. However, this newfound recognition brought its own complexities. The same face staring back at me hadn’t changed—what had shifted was the perception of those around me. This realization left me questioning the permanence of their admiration.
This uncertainty compounded typical teenage anxieties, creating a fragile sense of accomplishment. Despite external validation, internally, I struggled with confidence, recognizing the disparity between outward success and inner doubt. To this day, I describe myself as having a large ego yet lacking genuine self-assurance. This paradox became a pivotal part of my journey toward understanding identity and worth beyond societal approval.
The runway experience culminated in a transformative moment where I embraced my achievements fully. Walking towards Olivier Rousteing, I felt a profound connection to the path that led me there. This wasn’t just about closing the show or receiving accolades—it symbolized overcoming decades of displacement and self-doubt. Each step represented resilience, growth, and acceptance of my authentic self.
This journey taught me invaluable lessons about identity and belonging. Belonging isn’t granted by external circumstances or others’ opinions; it stems from within, cultivated through experiences and perseverance. Embracing one’s uniqueness becomes essential in navigating life’s uncertainties. For anyone facing similar struggles, remember: your value isn’t defined by fleeting perceptions but by the strength you build over time.